Today It's one week until Shams comes and visits me here in linköping.
We havn't meet since a week after graduation and that is hhmm about 7-8 months ago.
And I'm soo freaking happy!
I and Shams we think so alike it's freaky, she's just as geeky (if not more ;P) as me.
and we understand eachother fully.
She's one of my best friends and these months has been tourtur. But now I finally get to see her!

I got my first tattoo last week.
I didn't think the guy who did it would have time but I called him on freday at twelve and he told me to come by at five.
It took like 10 min too do xD
I love it! I've been planing it it for about 2-3 years. might sound a long time for something so little but I think I had to take that time or it might not mean as much to me.
( my tattoo )

now school. the only "friend" I hung out with moved back home, so I'm kind of alone. talking to some people, but everone has found someone to befriend. but hey it's only been a week back from the holiday break so I'm not giving up.

I moved to my own appartment  :)
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1. What did you do in 2009 that you'd never done before?
    Moved away from home.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
     I don't make new year's resolutions.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
    Nope, I don't think so.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
    Yes, my granddad <3

5. What countries did you visit?
    ehhmm none. Oh my god I just realised that I didn't even go to Denmark this summer.

6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
    Better grades, and a boyfriend maybe.

7. What date from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
    19 november. My granddad died and I saw New moon at the cinema.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
     I got into Uni and I got my drivers licens! :D

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
       Nothing big, or something I havn't had for years.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
       I have no idea.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
       Shams? xD

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
       No idea

14. Where did most of your money go?
       hhmm movies and things, and rent.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
       Seening new moon on the big screene.

16. What song will always remind you of 2009?
      Use somebody - Kings of leon

17. Compared to this time last year, are you: happier or sadder? thinner or fatter?
       Happier and thinner.      

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
      Being with friends.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
      Sitting alone in my room.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
       With my family, grandparents, aunts and uncles.

21. Did you fall in love in 2009?
       I tought I did but now that I think back on it, it was just a crush.

22. How many one-night stands?
       None.

23. What was your favorite TV program?  
      SUPERNATURAL all the way! :D

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
       Yeah I think so.

25. What was the best book you read?
       East of Eden and the mortal instruments series.

26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
       Damien Rice, Sam Bradley

27. What did you want and get?
       uni.

28. What did you want and not get?
       pass all my exams.

29. What was your favorite film of this year?
       New moon

30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
      I turned 19, i was at home and one of my best friend got her drivers license.

31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
      don't know

32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
      one word... Kristen
      she has been my fashion influense this year.

33. What kept you sane?
       Movies

34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
       Kristen Stewart

35. What political issue stirred you the most?
      I don't remember

36. Who did you miss?
       Shams!! <3

37. Who was the best new person you met?
       Johan.

38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009?
       Don't compete with others, do your thing and don't compare yourself with others.

39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year?
       "...like a painted ghost"  
      Let me sign - Robert Pattinson

Today something happend that made me really sad by happiness (If you kind of can understand what I mean xD)

My granddad past away almost a month ago and my dad and his siblings are moving out all of his things from his appartment, dividing them if someone wants something.

Well today I talked to my mom about it and my mom said that there was a lot of paintings and things like that and if we wanted something we could go down and see. and the first thing that popped in to my head was this violin that hung on the wall in the house he used to live n with my grandmom.

This violin ment very much to me because when I was little I thought it looked so beautiful and I wanted it and my granddad said "If you learn how to play violin you can get it" and for years I was obsessed with learning how to play it, but I never learnt it, I just too my toy guitar and a stick and pretended to play the violin (I even have pics of me playing my guitar like that xD).

Well my mom said she didn't know If my aunt wanted it and she was going to ask my dad.
Later he came home and he said (without knowing that we had discussed it) "The violin is in the back of the car if you want it"
My mom said "Didn't Eva want it?"
and dad said "yeah, she took it and put it among her things but I took it"
then he continued with "because he had said before he died that Cassandra should have the violin"
And that made my all choked up.
and all I could think was "he remembered"
It will be something for me to remember my granddad and grandmom by.

So now it hangs on my wall here at home.
I won't take it with me up to Linköping, I'll take it with me when ever I get a "real appartment" and have room for it.

This is my favourite song at the moment.
Calle from Idol does so amazingly!
He's in the finale! I don't think there was many who thought that would happen because he has kind of been the underdog the whole time.
The sad thing is that I will be sitting on a train when the finle is, so I won't be able to see his performance, but I will gett my mom to get me the number so I can vote ether way xD
I will be home in time to see who won.
I don't think he will win, but it is better to come in second place because it's those who comes at second place who makes it later on.

Edi Gathegi is in sweden this weekend.
http://www.nrj.se/?underpage=165.30841&bloggId=2921
I was thinking about going to stockholm to see him, but my studentbudget woulden't allow it.
and My grandfather died and the funeral was today so I rather spend my weekend at home with my family.

It was a very beautiful funeral, I like the fact that I come from a smal town that the priest have a close relationship with everyone so he could talk personally about him. But I will post more of that, and pictues tomorrow I think.

This is my latest fanvideo.
It's about Dean and Jo.
SPOILER ALERT! spoilers for season 5 episode 10 of supernatural

I'm having I really hard time picking up my books and study for my Organic Chemistry exam next week.
Cim and Frida is comming to Linköping on thursday! SO STOKED! :D

In the swedish Idol there is now only 5 people left and my favorite, ever since the auditions, Calle Kristiansson is still in.
He's brilliant!
I never watched Idol like this.

here is some of my favorites

Today I got my lab coat that I ordered from my section in uni in the end of august.
It has our logo MatNat which stands for the mathematics and Nature programs.

( to see my lab coat )

Next week Cim and frida comes here to see the Midnightshowing of new moon with me. they'll come on th 19th and leave the 21th. and the 26th I have a exam, and then hopefully I will go home to my family right after my exam, or I will have to wait until the next day. I really would like to go home on the thursday... then I will have two whole days att home and not just one.

Hey!
I know I say this time and time again "I'm going to update more", I won't blame you if you think it's BS.
Now I'm really going to write atleast once a week.

Today I only had one class, Introduction to Biology study. only two hours.
Right now I have 3 courses. that one, Biochemistry and Organic Chemistry.
My BioChemistry class is really interesting. right now we are studying Proteins.

Today my mom called me and said that she and my grandmom had been to a medium. (everyone in my family believes in the paranormal)
And she said that they got in contact with my greatgrandmother. and my mom told me that she had said she was with me alot, and that I sometimes notice it. All I know is that I sometimes hear someone knocking, and sometimes get warm on a spot on my leg, as if someone has put their hand there.
She also said that I should stop eating milkproducts because it hurts my stomach. And I often do get a pain in my stomach and have to go to the bathroom after I've eaten. Never thought it was milk though.
She also told mom to tell me to believe more in myself because latly my confidence about me going to uni have been bad. And that is right, I havn't said that to a soul but it's been on my mind. My greatgrandmother also said that I can more than I think. And that I should compare myself with other people. Which I do all the time.

Now I'm going to study some Organic Chemistry. I have a test on the 26 of November but my friends are comming here for the premier of new moon that weekend so I'm getting as much time in now, so I won't panic as much as I usally does.

It's been so long since my last update but this summer has been crazy!

So let's take it one thing at a time ^^

( summer 09 )

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Song:
Realize - Colbi Caillat

Clip:
the covenant
the Quiet
When a stranger calls

About:
This is a AU (Alternative Universe) fanvid about Leah and Jacob. I love Renesmee/Jacob but I also love the thought of Leah/Jacob so I wanted to make a video about if Renesmee didn't exist how it might have played out. (once again I say, I love breaking dawn and Renesmee, this is not a video to show I want to change anything because I don't)

Cast:
Leah - Camilla Bella
Jacob - Steven strait

Hey!
( Graduation, University and books under the cut )